Wednesday, 24 November 2010

update

Well it is now 3 months since I left bingo and boyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy do I miss it, but I have found out exactly who my true bingo friends are, out of 200+ that I had added to my fb list, only 6 or 7 have really stayed in touch and spoken to me outside bingo, others comment occassionally but thats it.  I cant wait to go back, guess thats the true sign of an addict ........ oh well......

A couple of weeks ago, the sea cadet band that I work with was in a fantastic performance, they took part in a Youth Festival Of Rememberance, it was the best thing I have watched in  years, The young Petty Officer (scc) who had thought it up did  a marvelous job,  it was exactly like the BBC Festival in front of Her Majesty, The Queen used to be, before they brought in those blooming opera singers, there were displays from choirs, jazz band, air cadets, sea cadets, then there was a muster, and  the drumhead ceremony, that was so touching shame my blooming cam corder battery died half way through it, then we had community singing, singing old war songs, and then the prayers and then the poppies fell, ooooooooooh it was sooo wonderful, I do wish the bbc would go back to that, it was perfect.

On another note  yesterday my hubby, the man I can't do without had an operation, and I am so proud of him, he came back to the ward with a smile on his face, (made me wonder what they knocked him out with) and we were home 6 hours later, today he is sitting on the sofa with the tv remotes by his side, and hes behaving himself, I will chat again soon, probably just after Christmas
Bye for now xxxxxxxx

Saturday, 28 August 2010

what is an addiction?

What is an addiction????? that is a very good question isn't it, says in the online dictionary I looked at, that an addiction is a thing that makes the chemicals in your brain behave differently, bit like smoking, gamboling, drugs, over eating, drinking etc.

Am I an addict???? oooooooooh yes, I have to be, I have 2 teenagers living at home and sometimes its like being in the middle of world war 1 and 2 put together, hormones have alot to answer for, I wouldn't mind but i have a dog who is a right wuss,  she is a german shepherd who thinks it is her job in life to protect me from anyone who tries to get within spitting distance of me, that includes hubby and the kids, but when they start fighting or arguing, my dog tries to become a lap dog, and believe me, we are talking about a verrrry big dog here, she is the same when there are bangs, thunder, fireworks, strong winds, I tell you, we love the winter,   she has a very loud bark until shes frightened or nervous, then it becomes a squeak lol.

I have a son aged 25 who lives with his girlfriend, shes a lovely girl, and I am glad he's happy, I have another son aged 17,  who still lives at home, what can you say about him????,  well nothing other than, What I don't know about doesn't hurt him,  and a daughter who is 13,  enough said.  Don't get me wrong, I love my kids beyond life I honestly do, but I have to admit, I do enjoy them being AT school and not out of school, (so does the dog). Yes they are polite when they talk to other people, and will do anything other people ask them to do, it's just when they're indoors and no one can see them that they become the kids version of Jekyll and Hyde.

So what about me??? well I was very lucky to meet a lovely man through a dating agency, and 20 yrs later, we are still together...... wonder if its to late to sue them hehehehe... anyway  he IS  the love of my life,  I can't do without him, if he falls ill, I panic, pure and simple, so he is one of my addictions,  I have a weight problem, a big one so  I joined weightwatchers but the only watching I've been doing is watching my stomach get bigger, I don't think thats  the object of the club, I do try to eat sensibly but not long after I've eaten, I'm hungry again and I eat something else. Also I eat when I'm bored, or upset or depressed, comfort eating has a lot to answer for, So another addiction I have is over eating,  I love my computer, my hubby brought me one 7 years ago and in that 7 years I have gained over 98lbs...... geez thats alot, I haven't realised just how lazy I have become since I got this thing,  its  like a whole new world for me, even after 7 years the novelty of putting the computer on  and just sitting here looking at a screen hasn't left me, I wish it would, I might be alot healthier if it did, but I know, if I didnt have this thing, I would be a wreck within a day, so is this an addiction?? oh heck yes, I used to smoke, but I quit 17 yrs ago when I had post natal depression after my son was born, that is the only addiction I haven't restarted so I am really pleased about that,   I joined an online bingo site and played that for 2 years, I became addicted to watching numbers being covered with coloured blobs  and hoping to win money, proper money, not virtual stuff, but I found that I was losing more than I was winning and this week I eventually took my life in my hands and closed my bingo account, it was hard, coz the other people I was playing with and talking to  had become very dear to me, they are/ were complete nuts, so funny but also so caring, and I will miss them big time, but out of every cloud is a silver lining, I have an account on a social networking site, and so do most of the bingo crew I played with, so I can still see them on that. Now the only addiction I have left is this net working site, I am trying to cut down my time on that, I am trying to do more housework, (I have discovered, I hate housework, the computer is much more fun) so onwards and upwards, I'll chat next time I have something to say, which will probably be Christmas time, knowing me, have fun ....................... bye for now